Compromises

Compromises.. it's like making a deal to one's self, that the best one out there may not be attainable, or if it is attainable, it will cost me too much and it would hurt (emotionally, physically or financially).

I haven't been writing on this page lately, maybe because I often find the start of any writing so hard and laborious, that I it sways me from embarking.  Often I blame it on my situation, growing up in another country in my early years, that grammar and syntax are just too many rules to engage in especially late at night.  But how can I improve, if I continue to quit before trying.

But who knows why.. maybe I don't find writing on this blog as therapeutic to the soul as I once before.  Maybe because in one way or another, I'm avoiding a conversation with my God and His Word this past couple of months, this past year.

But here I am tonight, writing about 'Compromises', sharing with you my struggles. I often consider this as a yolk that I carry, the struggle within me, in anything.. from deciding what camera model to get, what model of macbook I should get, and recently, what type of road bike I should get to start this new hobby that I think I will greatly enjoy, that may lead me to better fitness.

Is it ok to compromise?  In a way, I think so.  Imagine with me someone who never compromise.  He would have the fastest car (..or most gas efficient), dress the sharpest, have the most beautiful wife.  But life situations often force us to compromise; our wallet reminds us to wise up and compromise in our spending (that's why sometimes we pick the walmart generic brands).

I know God always expects the best from me, and He gives.. from time to time, moment by moment the most precious gifts we may or may not deserve (ones we realize and many we don't).  But I truly believe He gives us the discretion to decide for ourselves, what we most desire in life.  To have that yearning and desire, and ask Him for it like a son would ask a father. But yet, at times I still find it so hard to make that decision for myself.

I can't think of a right verse to share with you on this thought right now, but this is an ongoing therapeutic post.  I shall add on a verse that impresses me should I come across one this week.

G'night.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11