The LORD is my Shepherd, I Shall not Want

I start work on monday. Had my physical today. But not feeling too lively spiritually.

"Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise Him,
my Salvation and my God."
Psalms 42:5

Maybe because I'm still a struggling sinner. I had to use google to find that verse in the Bible, and somehow I got more than one result. Sure enough, it's also the same verse on Psalms 42:11 & Psalms 43:5. I remember my friend David told me how this verse is like the Chorus in this psalm, which is a song. Have you ever felt this way? Maybe this is the chorus of your song this week too.

I tried to run away from God but He's still there to find me. As with this whole 'working full-time for the first time' deal, I think God has been calling me out. I have so many plans running through my head... "Oh when i finally start working, the first thing I'll buy..." or, "What kind of car will I find, used or new?" and my favorite, "But iPhone 4 is finally on verizon!"

Oh Andrey, [just tonight] I even looked up the word 'covet' on my computer's dictionary to try justify for myself. "If I don't want other people's stuff, but just want nice things in general, that should be ok right, God?"


And then, like a coincidence, a faithful friend put an entry on her blog with just this verse (with bold letters too):

"For the love of Christ controls us [...] and He died for all, that those who live might no longer live for themselves, but for Him who died and rose again on their behalf." II Cor 5:14,15

I feel like Jonah trying to hide in the bottom of the ship.

"But godliness with contentment is great gain. For we brought nothing into this world, and it is certain we can carry nothing out. And having food and rainment let us be therewith content. But they that will be rich fall into temptation and a snare, and into many foolish and hurtful lusts, which drown men in destruction and perdition." I Tim 6:6-9

"But thou, O man of God, flee these things; and follow after righteousness, godliness, faith, love, patience, meekness. Fight the good fight of faith, lay hold on eternal life, whereunto thou art also called, and hast professed a good profession before many witnesses." (verse 11,12)

Lord, I surrender everything to You. Make me and mold me. Shape my character to Yours. Thank you oh Holy Spirit for the conviction. Will be playing piano for tomorrow's service, accompanying Kuya Ronjo who will be singing. Without a clear conscience, I can never play well. Forgive me for relying to much on feelings this week... Your grace is enough for me, Your righteousness alone sustains me, O LORD my Salvation.